It's hard..

the feeling is so hard,
i dunno how to express it,
it feels like i really don't wanna care anymore,
but then,
in the end,
i care so much,
i feel so stupid sometimes,
and it's not like once in a blue moon.

i need patience.
Lord, give me the patience.
tell me what to do.
teach me how to overcome this.
i may not be able to take it much longer,
if i am going to care about it even more,
i will surely break down.
Help me Lord.

i really really may not be able to bear it anymore..