should i or should i not?

i wish i knew..
what i should do now.
should i give it up?
or should i ignore everything else
and hold on to it with all i can.

i wish i knew..
what i should do.
somehow i feel bad,
if i do one n don't do the other.
and if i did the other n don't do the other.

why do i always have to go through this?
what is wrong?
did i do something wrong?
or did i make a wrong decision in coming to Russia?
i really don't know.

but i'm really tired.
i'm really fed up.
i feel like i don't wanna care anymore.
but in the end i can't seem to.
maybe i really do think too much.

God, take away this cup of burden.
be a light unto my path,
that shines the way through.
so i may know,
that You are there.

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Spring is here.. but Exams are here too..

winter has ended. spring is here. rain rain rain almost like everyday. tulips and flowers and grass has started to grow, with pollen flying everywhere too. and u know, daylight is much longer now. even at 10pm, it's like only 6-7pm in the evening. so we always don't realize our time flew by so fast. sad thing is now that it's exams time. FINALS!! seriously hectic. literally don't have time to loose. i'm currently in my 2nd hectic week. last week was the first, and i passed it, thank God.

i need to take 2 final papers on 9th Biology and 15th General Chemistry. the rest are just end semester control exams which they call here as 'zachot'. this week, i just had my russian language final, and coming up is anatomy and histology zachot. not to forget, a Physics project in order to get avtomat (which means no need to sit for finals, it's the system here that if u get all 5s for all control exams, i.e. Excellent, u won't have to sit for Finals but just need to do a project or task). i just finished it so now just have to run through it. :)

about tulips, they're growing now everywhere in Moscow, it's just so beautiful. outside the building where we have some of our classes and lectures, there's this huge heap of tulips growing there. so of course we grap the chance to take photos with them, super pretty.

tulips.. heaps of them.
if it was Msia, i bet they would all be gone within hours.
haha. agree?

that's me :)

me, Lynn, Chien

recently, we took class photos with some of our teachers.. here they are.

with our Histology teacher, Ms. Tatiana

with our General Chemistry teacher, Ms. Olga
her birthday was on the day of one of our classes.

Gambateh everyone for EXAMS!!! 加油..

and not to forget, it's 3 weeks more to home. getting closer. can't wait to get home. miss you all so much...

Mommy daddy, Samuel, Stephen, David, i miss u all so much...
Judith.. i miss u so much too..

take care everyone. God bless.

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BBQ at Embassy

Last Saturday, we had BBQ at the Malaysian Embassy organized by SMSA for MMA Malaysian Students. Great job to May Shi and her team for putting up a fantastic BBQ! Congrats May Shi..

Anyways, here's some photos..

As usual, i'm lost for words. malas to type lots also so let pictures speak. hehe. and finals and exams are just round the corner, like next week, so i won't have time to blog ady.. must sit down be good girl and study.. lazy me. haha.

the sky.. look at the bright sun.
summer is here.

Charmaine, me, Jien Wey, Lynn

me n Charmaine

picnic picnic

dear unit mates. love u all :)

2 monkeys.. Aaron n Chien.

Charmaine, me, Lynn, Chien, BC, Jien Wey

at the end of the BBQ, i smelt like toasted garlic bread and chicken. coz i helped to toast the garlic breads.. YUMMY!! hehehe..

that's all ppl. missing u all in Malaysia. can't wait to get home. 1 more month, but before that, nightmare of finals. oh noo...

take care.

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Dearest Mom..

To the BEST mum in the world,


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

Mom, thank you,
Thank you for everything,
For all your love, support, care,
guidance, prayers,
Which made me who i am today,
and kept me going no matter where i am.

Though i am miles away,
my heart is always with you,
thinking consistently of you.
Missing you every single moment
i'm away from you.
How i wish i was in your arms now.

Mom, thank you for being my role model,
For always being patient with us,
especially when we were disobedient.
You never failed to plant the Word of God,
deep in our hearts.
And you set an example in your life,
for us to follow.
So that we may grow in faith in Him.

I can never thank God enough,
For giving me,
the BEST mum i can ever have.
And in fact,
I thank Him even more,
For giving me YOU.

Thank you, Mommy
For being the BEST mom in the world.
I LOVE YOU so so so much.
And i will forever will.
Nothing will ever change that.

I Love You MOM.
Happy Mother's Day.

-Sealed with a kiss-

From your beloved daughter in Moscow.

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Quiet Time

When I lift you, my friend,
my arm grows stronger.
When I give to you
my hand empties to receive.
When I walk with you through
dark valleys,
my feet learn the way to Truth.
When I weep with you,
my eyes wash clear to see
compassion's holy bond.
When I lift you,
I am lifted.


-thank you Jesus-

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